Aren't these beautiful pictures? It was a beautiful day at Farm Country, Thanksgiving Point a few Saturdays ago. Mark loved the animals. We knew he would.
I am ridiculously tired and grumpy right now. I need to go to bed but first I wanted to clear my brain so... here I am.
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. My family is scattered in different parts of the world, but none of us are alone, which is what's important. And I have Mark and Danny, which is all I really want anyway :) However, I'll miss you guys tomorrow, Sarah, Hannah, Mom, and Dad. Happy Thanksgiving.
This week we have been trying to teach Mark what to call his parents. "Dad" comes out as "Dadadada," which we love. And "Mom".... comes out as "Mop." Or "Bop." Or "Moooouuummmmm." Oh MAN, I love Mark.
I have new resolve to reach an old goal: to get out of the [insert swear word here] workforce and be home with Mark... where I won't really be doing any less work. At all. But I will be with my boy. This one is a ways out there. We've got things to work on. Savings. Debt. Budgets. Oh, what I would have done differently months and years ago if only I had paid more attention to it. I feel like such a sad excuse for a mom and have a fiery desire to get myself to a place where I feel like I am actually being the parent I need to be... Not to mention, the wife I need to be to a husband who is very deserving. Don't get me wrong. I like my job. I like to work. I can't just up and leave it because right now we need it. But I hope to get us to a place where we don't. So by all means, throw your suggestions my way... your thoughts about companies who hire people to work from home... your opinions or tips about whatever. I'll take it all. Meanwhile, I will be making all my lunches instead of eating out, seeing dollar movies, doing my own hair, and getting my rear in gear. Watch out. I am determined to be the mother I came to earth to be.
And now that I've put that out in the universe, I am going to bed.
xoxo
-a
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. My family is scattered in different parts of the world, but none of us are alone, which is what's important. And I have Mark and Danny, which is all I really want anyway :) However, I'll miss you guys tomorrow, Sarah, Hannah, Mom, and Dad. Happy Thanksgiving.
This week we have been trying to teach Mark what to call his parents. "Dad" comes out as "Dadadada," which we love. And "Mom".... comes out as "Mop." Or "Bop." Or "Moooouuummmmm." Oh MAN, I love Mark.
I have new resolve to reach an old goal: to get out of the [insert swear word here] workforce and be home with Mark... where I won't really be doing any less work. At all. But I will be with my boy. This one is a ways out there. We've got things to work on. Savings. Debt. Budgets. Oh, what I would have done differently months and years ago if only I had paid more attention to it. I feel like such a sad excuse for a mom and have a fiery desire to get myself to a place where I feel like I am actually being the parent I need to be... Not to mention, the wife I need to be to a husband who is very deserving. Don't get me wrong. I like my job. I like to work. I can't just up and leave it because right now we need it. But I hope to get us to a place where we don't. So by all means, throw your suggestions my way... your thoughts about companies who hire people to work from home... your opinions or tips about whatever. I'll take it all. Meanwhile, I will be making all my lunches instead of eating out, seeing dollar movies, doing my own hair, and getting my rear in gear. Watch out. I am determined to be the mother I came to earth to be.
And now that I've put that out in the universe, I am going to bed.
xoxo
-a
Haha I adore you and your determination to be better, which I'm not sure is possible. You are pretty amazing al!! Love you, Happy Thanksgiving! I'm dying for an update so call me soon!
ReplyDeleteI don't think you realize all the people that look up to you for who you are and all that you do. I sure look up to you. Love you, Al!
ReplyDeletePS send me an email/what is your email (?) and I'll add you to my blog
ReplyDeletecute pictures of mark.
ReplyDeleteyep. i said it.
xox
I don't have any advice on what to do, although the things you are going to start doing all sound like good things. I have this same fear for when we have kids-I really want to stay at home with them. So when you figure out how to do it, let me know! ha I'm sure actual mom's have some good advice. Good luck!
ReplyDeleteI am sad that I didn't get to spend Thanksgiving with you guys this year! I hope you had a good one. And I agree with what Shay says - you don't know how much I look up to you, Allie! Mark and Danny are so lucky to have you! Hang in there! xoxo
ReplyDeleteP.S. How long before Mark says my name?! I expect to be number 3. Or at least in his top 5.
What sweet comments in this post - you ARE the most awesome mom, it's so difficult to juggle it all, and there will ALWAYS be things to juggle. Mark is truly so darling and has the cutest personality - I think he must get it from you :)
ReplyDeleteKristin